Thursday, February 21, 2008
A mask,a happy face to cover the real me. . . . Deep inside my heart no one understand the pain.Only God will understand and know how i feel.i had nv been so dissapointed before.i jux dunno wad to do.I find it hard to communicate wif ppl recently.when i say hard,it's really mean HARD.i hav no mood for everything.I prayed alot. .God only help me someway.But i will cont to believe in HIM and trust in HIM,tat things gonna turn out well.I'm jux not used to wad i hav now.I used to think tat i'm a luckky and fortunate guy. . . to hav a wonderful Family.no financial problem.Living in a good environment.but i think tis time round,if some discouraging words comes to me.it's gonna be hurtful for me.I hav such a loving Parents.but all things seem to turn in another way round and it came like BLOW.I jux cant accept the fact and i felt not used to it.I jux feel weak now.i had nv exp such a terrible condition before.What's more,today cell grp meeting was toking abt FAMILY.This word was like so SENSITIVE to me.At tat point of time,i felt like walking away.I really dun hav de mood to listen to the sermon.but i sense tat holy spirit,asked me to stay.On the other hand,it's say tat cell grp was like our 2nd family?but to speak de actual fact.i jux cant feel tat it's like a second family to me.ppl are like forming their own grp,staying in their comfort zone.This is wad i feel from the btm of my heart.no offence.but still,i'm loving E243,Love God wholeheartedly,Love ppl fervently
Really in a down period now. .I realise the importanace of family.i gonna put my trust in HIM,tat things gonna turn well soon.
My Life, My World@ 8:37 AM;
